Being the leader is actually a great thing.
I get to do the decisions.
Say where to go and what to do. I am the executive one.
The others put their trust in me.
But this also mean that they kind of depend on me.
It makes me the responsible one.
I like the challenge.
I like the fact that other trust me.
But sometimes I want someone to take my hand and say:
My dear, relax, I will take the lead, you don't need to worry.
And at first I might be stubborn.
But eventually I will let that someone take the lead.