Tuesday, 4 April 2017

To whom it may concern

To whom it may concern


I am not perfect. I am not someone who ask others for favors or anything. I do not let others see how hurt I am. I hardly talk about myself. I never complain and suffer quietly.
I am aware of the fact that I have no chance of survival on my own. I know I need others whether I like it or not. This does not mean that I have to give myself to someone.
It does not mean I can not be alone.
I'm fine by myself.
I deliberately withdraw people.
Not because I'm socially incapable, no, but because I'm consciously against it.
How so?
I'm not so sure. I only know that I sometimes need distance. Just when I am among many people, of whom I know few to no one.
Perhaps it is the breeding that I had.
Maybe I am neurologically not quite like one has to be.
Then the question is how to be?
No one can answer such a question correctly.
That's why I'm accepting the way I am.
And if someone has a problem with my being. You know the door or in this case the "close" button.
I will not pretend to be seen or perceived anywhere.
Of course, I have to adapt to new situations but I just do it up to a certain point.

A point which I myself determine.